Something I feel like sharing..

Here in Brasil i am keeping a personal journal and i wrote an entry a month ago that i went back and reread earlier today that God gave me some insight. I would like to share it with you. Sorry if it doesn't make sense to you or you don't agree.

January 29th

I feel like God is putting a lot on my heart today. i just keep thinking random thoughts that make so much sense but that have never crossed my mind before. "Isn't the goal of all Christians is to make Christ known." Its such an obvious statement but really is that what I"m doing with my life. People say all the time throughout YWAM, "to know Christ and make him known." and i guess i have heard it and it made sense at the time but i never got a very clear vision for what power and action it calls to all who claim to be followers of Christ. I call myself a Christian yet I curse,gossip, participate in degrading relationships, act out of anger, lust,etc.. What kind of Christ am i showing by those actions? I am using the word "CHRIST" in what i claim to be, but if anything i am making him look dirty and sinful. How do i live as a proper reflection of Christ?

this was my first entry. today while reading it God gave me more insight on it, an answer if you will. :)

March 2nd

I was reading a journal entry today that i wrote a long time ago about what it shows when I call myself  Christian. At the time of writing it I was correct by saying and questioning the type of Christ I show by calling myself a Christian. It's a great thing to continuously recognize that the way we lives, when we call ourselves Christians, is a direct reflection to non-believers of who God is. But I also think that God is really showing me a different side to that. as i was rereading my old entry something came to me. The whole significance of Jesus Christ is the fact that he died to make us pure, clean, and holy. when we call ourselves Christians we aren't saying that we are perfect, we are stating that we need Christ in our lives. Yes, our lives are a reflection of God. Our lives are a direct reflection of God"s awesome, indescribable, totally undeserved love for us. Love so strong he sent his holy son to die to make us perfect. 

I think what God is presently teaching me is that with my first entry i wrote it in conviction. i felt convicted for living such a sinful life, for being such a poor example of a believer. but with my second entry i wrote it through my experiencing God's tremendous grace. as Christians we should be convicted of our sins but also remember that you cant be weighed down by our sin. We are so dearly loved by our Father. Loved so much that he sees us as perfect creations. He accepts us dirty and sinful because of his unashamed love for us. Dang how powerful is that. We did nothing to deserve such a gift. 

Hope you all are well!

love you